Unbridled Mom: Podcast Relaunch!
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[00:00:00] Hello, friends, and welcome to the new podcast. If you're one of the 14 people who listened to my original podcast, The Professional Mom Squad, this is the new iteration. This is Unbridled Mom, the podcast, and I'm glad to be back. It has been an interesting couple of years since then.
Actually, it's been more than a couple. It's been more like three or four. But something very big happened during that time, which made me change my approach, but in some ways, no. As I look back, as I listen back, as I look back at notes and other journaling that I had during that time, I said maybe things aren't as different as I thought."
But let's say that I got a little more laser focused on what I wanna talk about and what my mission is, and also, I am showing up to you as somewhat of a new woman, [00:01:00] I would say. And that's really where the unbridled I needed to unbridle myself, or start to at least before I could fully...
I felt comfortable, honestly, fully embodying what I wanted to talk about. But, you gotta show up messy. You gotta show up in the work, and so that's what I'm doing. So it took me a long time still. But okay, so what happened? Now that I've had my natal chart read in astrology, and have understood a little bit more in my own mind and life about how accurate and how informative it has been for my life, I realized that, what is this identity transformation that I have been going through?
After my three kids had been diagnosed as being neurodivergent, I realized that I'm also neurocomplex and understanding what that means for them, what that means for me, and really what does that look like [00:02:00] now along with everything else in, in life that I've gathered. And and then there's all the , the simple little fact of being clairaudient and hearing that I was going to die.
So that was interesting because my first inclination was let's go to the doctor and get a physical." But I suspected that the message was not literal. So I went to the doctor though, just to be safe 'cause, there's some joke in there about God sending messages, and it's "Why didn't you stop me?"
And it's I, I'm m- like, not doing the joke justice. I'm not even telling it. But anyway, it's okay, I gotta make sure that the sign is not literal. It was not literal. I'm fine, healthy, wonderful. And so then I buckled down, and it was like, okay, so this is a death and rebirth situation.
Cool, cool, cool. And then in, from an astrology point of view Saturn was in Pisces crossing my ascendant, and that process took three [00:03:00] years. And I don't know. Believe it or not, if it's accurate. So for me it was like, okay, this makes a lot of sense. There's a lot of things converging.
So all of that is to say you're gonna get a whole panoply of stuff here clearly. And so where did Unbridled come from? Unbridled came from, it's a little bit unmasking, which kind of comes from the neurodivergent world. Letting your true self, authentic self be seen. Trying not to fit in so much, trying not to be so normal, neurotypical.
And it also means unlearning. It means unlearning a lot of the things that I was conditioned either overtly or, Just by virtue of living in the world and seeing how people act and in your own dynamic you learn basically how to be. How do I be a [00:04:00] sister, a daughter? How do I be a mother? What is it like to be a woman?
There's very few times in life where someone sits us down and tells us those things. "This is what it means to be a woman. You do this." But certainly the messages that we receive out in the world in the media, from our immediate family, friends, schools, workplaces, we get all kinds of messages about how to be palatable, especially as women.
How to be small, how to be agreeable, how to be palatable, how to be a caretaker, how to be selfless, how to be a martyr, how to do so many things, how to be a good girl. Oh, we all wanna be a good girl. And so what is the process? What happens when you take off that, quote-unquote, "bridle" that is on you in however way that manifested and resonates?
What happens when you take it off? How does [00:05:00] your life change? How does it change in your relationships? How does it change how you parent? And my view is that this is a beautiful and magical journey that you can go on when you take into consideration consciously more about what is going on in your brain, in your life, and then how you show up with your kids.
And a main thing for me, and why I'm really focusing on the mom piece and why it's called Unbridled Mom, is one, I have this big, huge corner, if not two-thirds of my heart that just aches for moms and our place in this world and what we give and how we struggle. I just want nothing more than to, to help and support moms [00:06:00] because, we really need it, number one.
I lost my train of thought. So that was number one, but I don't know what two and three are 'cause welcome to the world of being neurocomplex. And so I'm not gonna edit this out because this is how life works, right? Oh, focusing on moms, here we go. So it is so difficult, and I want to give so much, just like I did before, I wanna give so many practical tips and tricks and give you all the insider knowledge that I had to learn the hard way, and yet I also want to communicate that this journey of raising sensitive, intense, neurodivergent, anxious, whatever label, strong-willed, I've heard them all hard to parent, all of the things, those spicy, juicy, delicious kids the ones that are constantly, quote-unquote, "doing the wrong thing all the time," those kids.
It is difficult. It is difficult to parent those kids. And yet they are [00:07:00] here to teach us something wonderful, and they are part of our journey for a reason. I feel so strongly about this. And so I think part of the, How do I wanna say it? Part of the journey, part of the getting through the hard times is not doing more.
It's not figuring out the answer for your kid on what is just the therapy, just the medication, just the situation that they need. Those things can be helpful, but really what they're calling us to do, believe it or not, is to be more ourselves, to show up more as ourselves, to re-raise ourselves and be real with them so that both of us can be our true selves, our [00:08:00] unmasked selves, our unbridled selves, so that we can really let our magic shine in this world, really let it shine.
And I have seen, I have had some just horrible, terrible times that I don't even know if I feel comfortable describing fully anywhere at any time. Maybe I will. I hope I will. But, I'm talking we've had some dark times in our household, struggles. And yet I have seen in myself and in my children amazing magic, real magic.
Like, where can you find that in this world? It is big, it's loud, it's overwhelming, and there's a lot going on. And so what? So we're here, we're living. Who wouldn't like a little more magic? Magic over struggles that bring us all to our [00:09:00] knees, it's gonna happen anyway. It still happens 'cause that is the catalyst.
It's these times that are a catalyst. They're asking us These situations, these challenges are just begging us, "Please wake up. Please see. Please see what's going on here really, and let's see how we can all show up differently," because we all know our world needs it, don't we? What is happening in the world
And so what we need is love Right? Love ourself, love our kids, and part of that means as we are. Loving ourselves as we are. Loving our kids as they are. And just the bravery and courage to show up that way, [00:10:00] real and raw and messy, but beautiful and magical too. That all gets to coexist because the alternative is a lot of deliciously beautiful, magical people like us trying to be normal, trying to be the same, try to fit into a world where there's a lot of power and control, and there's a right way to be, and there's a right skin color, and there's a right religion.
No. No. We are all humans. We all deserve and need love and connection, and that's what we're building here together. That's what I wanna talk about. That's what I wanna explore, all of the ways to do this. And in my life and in my world, the [00:11:00] way that I see this coming to life is through this idea of being unbridled.
So what does that mean for the podcast? Who knows? No I don't really mean that. What I mean though is, there's some content I think I'm gonna put out on Substack that might be a little more deep, a little more, I don't know, heady, complex. I need to satisfy that part of my brain. But I think the podcast is gonna be a little more raw, real, not so much editing practical, sure, also aspirational, also I don't know, a lot of things.
So I think I'm gonna leave it at that for this one. I know I didn't, let me see. Let me give you a little more information before I go so we can make this introduction complete if you have not if you're not familiar with who I am already. [00:12:00] So I have been a lawyer for over 20 years.
I have been fascinated with religion and meditation and all things interesting and spiritual and magical since I was really young. I started a religion when I was in elementary school called Imbuism. So I've always been drawn to this I don't know, the existential way of being. What, who are we?
Why are we here? What are we doing? Is there magic? Please show me. Are there spirits? All of these things. I've just been fascinated, and it took me a long time to get to a place where I feel like, ah, I've been let in to the inner sanctum but yeah, so I've been really interested in that. I majored in philosophy because even though I was really good at math, I just couldn't take the classes.
I couldn't do any more. So I took the very practical route of becoming a philosophy major, but I loved it. And then I became a lawyer because I felt like I needed to be stable. [00:13:00] This is my south node. I need stability. I needed to feel like I could make money, take care of myself, take care of my family.
And so I stopped officially doing that. I don't know if I'll stop forever, probably not, because I'm a multipotentialite. I love doing a lot of different things, and so I'm finally gonna let myself do those things. Yay for me. Part of the unbridling process, by the way. But I needed to explore other things.
I got certified in drum journey. Drum journey is an ancient shamanic practice of, using the sound of a drum to access non-local reality and speak to spirit guides and do that on others' behalf as well as myself. So that's been fun. And also just learning about me and my kids and really trying to survive, honestly.
I have three kids, three boys. Each of them have been diagnosed as neurodivergent in some way, autistic, ADHD, demand avoidant, rejection [00:14:00] sensitive . All of them have been diagnosed with anxiety. We have a whole panoply of things going on here, and then of course, myself, which I have self-diagnosed because it was a very long long waiting list to get diagnosed.
I was given the suggestion, recommendation as a woman to get diagnosed by someone who's used to diagnosing women because otherwise you won't... I don't know, the intense way and natural way that women have for masking, especially, highly intelligent women, we find a way to get through life and look completely normal.
And so anyway but I have like self-diagnosed myself as an autistic ADHDer. Two of my kids have not been diagnosed with autism officially, but I think it's just a matter of time because they both have PDA [00:15:00] profiles, which is, although it's not in the DSM as of yet, it's seen as a profile of autism.
Anyway, really, it really doesn't matter. If you know anything about my philosophy, it's that this is just a lens, a diagnosis is just a lens, and we'll talk more about that actually. I'm looking at, it is like first the next podcast I have scheduled is diagnosis as a lens. And it's imperfect and so anyway, that's a little about me and about my family.
I live in Texas. I used to live in California. What else? I don't know. That's all for now. So thank you for being here. If you listened to all of this ramble, yay for me and you. I really appreciate you. I hope you stick around, and I think it's gonna be a fun ride. Take care.
